Lapse in Life

It's been awhile...

And I am not going to apologize.

And I am going to honestly say it outright, even if it may be controversial: I don't believe that balance in life can be achieved.  And I mean that not in a paralyzing, pessimistic way but rather in a freeing sense of waving the white flag and moving on...letting go of silly notions that we can have it all and be it all...

And just plain living.

And this is from moi, the women's studies major, who fought bra-less, hairy-legged fights for the right to even ATTEMPT to have it all...

Sometimes your bathtub is going to brim with dirt and naked barbies and caked soap...and that isn't such a bad thing, even for the obsessive compulsive, is it?

Sometimes your kids' snotty noses will take up more of your time than a good book or good friend or a good night out with the person who is supposed to be your significant other but doesn't momentarily seem any more significant than the belly button lint you rarely consider....

Sometimes your dust bunnies will plan gigantic parties and invade but you'll know the latest news and have something to talk about over lunchroom conversations...

Sometimes your kids will have to hang out, almost puking, in your boss' office until you're just about finished something...and sometimes your boss will have to hang out alone in their office while you cuddle your fevered offspring who snores into your shoulder....

Sometimes meals will be served without vegetables and faces won't be washed and lawns will grow past your shins and your supposed-to-be-white socks will be grey...

And sometimes it will all look fabulously pretty and pristine and white-picket-fence-ish and you'll be so lonely you'll beg the grocery store clerk to say more than "hello" to you...

You can't have it all.

And, really...that ain't such a bad thing, is it???